Dreamer.....

The dust settled on the window sills of my room seemed bored and the idea of finding a different place to settle in was an exciting idea they were pondering on, it’s been a long time since they have lain there quietly. The breeze blowing so fiercely was helping my long time friends to find a new destination while I stood silently at the nook of my room scrutinizing their every move. The coffee mug cupped firmly between my fingers was helping them to get back to life from their numb state while the sudden outburst of sprinklers from the sky washed off my old pals. Countless dust particles overshadowing the tree in front of my house were finally washed off and the beauty of the green leaves seemed tough to give amiss.
Now the unnoticeable things could finally be noticed and the air carried with it a sweet smell which wafted in my room. This change was such a relief, a relief from the heat and dust. It was a huge relief for me especially; as I didn’t need to go to work today and I had a good excuse to invest my time doing the favorite pastime….watching the rains tapping on my window! The ambience was romantic and I already fell for it badly. Was I in love or the idea of falling in love was exciting me more, I don’t know but all I know was that I wanted to fall in love and embark on a new journey. Exploring the unknown paths, making my way through the serpentine lanes and the soiled streets welcoming me with open arms was the idea I was tampering with unconsciously. To many it didn’t make any sense and to say the truth even I was confused but all I know is that I needed a reason to runaway from the known faces. At this moment, the unknown faces were the safest ones to mingle with. The hypocrisy, getting back stabbed by the most trusted souls exasperated me and in order to get away from all this I needed a change of environment and most importantly I needed time to evolve.
What changes have I made till date? Were those changes successful ones? Did I have the courage to opt for a new change at this instant? All these questions were engulfing my thoughts while I was trying to grope around for an appropriate answer but failed to do so. I was ready to embark on a journey, not sure whether someone had the nerve to accompany me to help me take the biggest step of my life but here I was standing at crossroads, too adamant to step back from the decision I had already taken…..
While embarking on a journey it is very important to delve into this matter and decide what you are exactly expecting from it. Like in my case, I wanted to enjoy the solitude all by myself; I desperately needed solace from this hectic and unnerving life. Hence, I redirected all my energies to attain this goal. So it is mandatory to first identify your goals, choosing the right path and then focus in attaining those goals. While you are embarking on a journey or are part of the process, like me, you might find that the path is uneven or there is some sort of hindrance waiting for you in your chosen pathway. But the traveler who overcomes all these hindrances is the bravest of all! Try relating this scenario to your life. Don’t we all encounter hindrances in our daily life which stops us from doing something we always wanted to do? Instead of getting bogged and moving ahead in life to turn our dreams into reality helps us to be at content. No matter how unbearable the pain you might be experiencing in the journey, try to enjoy it and relate every scenario with your own life. If you’re moving too fast, try reducing your pace and take a notice of the beautiful things nature has gifted you.
While taking the journey, I noticed that I had forgotten how to laugh and enjoy the simplicities of life because I never had time to take notice of it while I was working or partying with my friends till the wee hours. This journey helped me take notice of things I was missing out on…I learnt to laugh again, the child in me which was scared to come out publicly was not scared anymore. As my journey reached to its destination I knew deep inside that the beautiful dream has finally come to an end but I also knew that though it has ended, the journey taught me to be different from the others. My thoughts weren’t conflicting with my inner world now; they both seemed to be at content.
Though my journey ended on a satisfying note, yours has just begun….learn to live life to the fullest. The hurdles may come in your but don’t let it be an excuse to stop you. Instead make it your strong armor and most importantly try spending some time with yourself. Learn to laugh at your mistakes now before you forget what laughter is!

Pooja Choudhury